answered prayers

Tonight our Sophi girl had what we believe to be a complex partial seizure, 

she's had this type of seizure before... 

it lasted about 12-15 minutes,

nothing new, just been awhile since we've seen one.

We'll get with the neurologist tomorrow and review the events from tonight 

but this has been a busy week and may just have been too much for our girl. 

Sleep schedule has been a little wonky, which means her medicine schedule has been a little off, not by much but maybe enough to cause a break through seizure? 

I don't know, we'll let the doctor determine that.

The reason I wanted to share though... for prayers of course, for the doctor and any tests he may or may not order, but most important, 

I have to share a lesson... you see today I was grumpy, tired and was ready for the kids to go to bed, I called out to God tonight, Lord give me strength to get these kids in bed!

I meant it but not in that prayerful kind of way more of a short tempered, I'm ready for this night to be over kind of way.. and then this... 

and as she struggled in the midst of a storm 

she would scream for me to hold her, 

then cry that I was holding her too tight, 

shivering and shaking that she was going to throw up, 

laying with her face on the side of the toilet.. 

you know what she did?

she prayed...

God please make this stop, 

let me just go to sleep, 

take away my hurt tummy and just let me go to sleep

Please God I'll do anything if you just make it stop

Through my tears, I kiss her damp hair and I pray with her 

because in that moment there is nothing else I can do. 

I sit on the floor with her, holding her close but not to tight

She tells me I sound far away

I'm right here baby.

God just let her know I'm right here.

During these seizures she is conscious but disorientated, 

she screams that I'm not close enough but I'm standing next to her

She cries in pain and that she is going to throw up but she's not sick

It is the most helpless feeling for this momma

So I pray...

I feel her heart rate slow down, the shivering and shaking subsides 

and in a matter of moments it's over.

She asks for me to carry her to bed and I sing a few songs

and her prayers for sleep are answered.

What an example of faith and peace that only comes for our Heavenly Father, 

she knows He is peace in the midst of the storm.

Oh, how much I learn from this baby, thank you God for blessing our family with her

and no more shouting to God for strength, at least not strength to get the kids to bed...